"At present we see indistinctly, as in a mirror, but then face to face. At present I know partially; then I shall know fully, as I am fully known."

One of the biggest temptations of our time is to think we are God. We determine what is good and true. We invent—create—who we want to be. We are the measure of all things. But we are not God.

If I were God, I would have created a different world. There would be less suffering and many, many fewer people. I would create only people I like. But I am not God.

If God is almighty and goodness itself, He could have created a different world. Is this really the best of all worlds? Good things seem randomly distributed among the just and the unjust. Innocent children get cancer; dictators kill millions of people yet remain healthy. We seem to be thrown into a world where the powerful do what they will, and the weak suffer what they must. 

We cannot help but wonder whether we are playthings in the hands of an arbitrary God—a God who seems to favor some and create others to neglect or torment. Even the most religious people cannot help but notice that God is hard to understand. Think of Teresa of Ávila, who famously said, “If this is how You treat Your friends, no wonder You have so few of them!” 

Yet the God we believe in does offer hope. When He appeared among us in Christ, He endured injustice, suffering, and death. He died and rose again. He gave us hope that light emerges from darkness. He told us that the final word is not death but life, not evil but good. 

But why did He create this valley of tears? Thinkers have speculated that suffering may be a pedagogical tool, teaching us what is truly important in life and helping us detach from what does not matter. Others have suggested that, because we are not God, we can see creation only in two dimensions. God sees all dimensions. We do not know all that is in play. 

We are not God. Our task is to cling to hope (without God there is none for the unfortunates of the world), nurture faith, and strive to practice charity the best we can. Perhaps one day we will understand. It will not be on this earth, because we are not God.

​Continuing with our Joy of the Just members’ choices of Patron Saints:

Catherine Mary Michael:

Catherine of Siena had both humility and courage. In her Dialogue, the Eternal Father tells her
that when she receives the Eucharist, she is like a fish in the peaceful Sea with the Sea sustaining
the life of the fish. The Eternal Father further tells St. Catherine that when we receive the
Eucharist, it is like receiving light which retains its fullness even when it is portioned out. We are
given fully the grace that He won for each of us and which abides in Him as the risen Christ who
offers us himself in the Eucharist. Catherine knew that we must be rooted in humility with the
self-knowledge that we have no life without God. In constant prayer, she maintained a shared
life with God, and trusting in his will, she courageously brought Christ’s love to those who were
overcome by the clamor of this world.

As I picture St. Catherine receiving the head of the executed prisoner, Niccolo di Toldo, whom
she prepared for death, I know that she was not timid in loving others and was certain that
through forgiveness of sin, eternal life was possible. She was sure that God would give her the
words to encourage even the popes to lead their flock away from worldliness that places idols
above the Creator. Catherine wanted each person to be won over by Christ who in humility took
on human nature, and so lovingly gave up his life to conquer sin and death, giving us, in the
Eucharist, the fullness of grace which abides in Him.
Catherine helped me to understand the humility and courage of Mary, who in perfect humility
bore the Light of the World, and Michael the Archangel, who protects those who seek to follow
Christ.
(See Dialogue of St. Catherine of Siena, Nos. 27-49, 93, 112; Letters 54, 64, 88, T306/G18)

Diana Maria:

I have long been fascinated by the lives of those Saints who have managed to form deep, yet
chaste, Christ-centered friendships with members of the opposite sex.
Bl. Diana d’Andalo and Bl. Jordan of Saxony shared such a friendship. They were both dear
friends of St. Dominic and may have grown closer to each other in their shared grief over his
passing in 1221. In 1223, with the assistance of Jordan, Diana co-founded the Dominican
Monastery of St Agnes, in Bologna, Italy. Jordan became Diana’s spiritual advisor; she, in turn,
was credited by him to be a powerhouse of prayer, responsible for many of the Dominican
successes in the material world.
As their friendship progressed, they both proved to be prolific letter writers, with Diana saving
all of Jordan’s letters, through which we learned much of what we know about Jordan to this
day. Diana died of natural causes on 10 June 1236. Jordan was at sea at the time; a shipwreck
took his life Feb 13, 1237. Neither knew, at the time of their passing, that their lifelong friend
had also been called home.

Bl. Maria “Marietta” Bagnesi Bartolomeo 1514-1577

I identified with and or aspire towards several things about Marietta: A disability had prevented
her from entering religious life; subsequently, she became a Lay Dominican. She had a calming
effect upon animals (especially cats!) and that calming effect extended to people, who sought her
out although she lay housebound. Mass and confessions took place in her room and she became
a mystic. Towards the end of her life, she spent much time in ecstasy.
She proves that obstacles and disabilities need not prevent us from letting God make use of us.
Her life did not turn out the way she planned, but perhaps it turned out better…. She had her
special role to fill in the service of our Lord; she found it, and she excelled at it.
There is no disability that can stand in the way of God’s plan for us.
There were so many things about Marietta with which I identified, but it is the disability, and her
perseverance in service to the Lord in the face of that disability, that draws me to her example
the most.

DON’T BE AFRAID TO BE A SAINT

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Here are the next two entries in our continuation of sharing why our members
chose certain saints as their patrons.
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Adelaide Langmann: Sister Adelaide Langmann was one of the best-known
Mystics of the14th century in Germany. She was born in Engelthal in 1310, and as
a little girl was described as extraordinarily pious and good; and she always
showed a preference for sermons on the Passion. At the age of 13, she was
betrothed to a young man who died suddenly. While in church praying for his
soul, Adelaide heard a voice saying, “All your fiancés will die, because our Lord
has reserved you for Himself.” She was told she would enter the cloister and
perform certain acts of penance. Adelaide felt she should do as she was told but
she was attached to her friends and could not bear the thought of going to the
cloister. She took the discipline seven times a day as she was told to do and her
nights were a struggle with the devil. But she could not bring herself to enter the
convent. One day, as she was receiving Holy Communion, she became distressed
because she could not swallow the Host, and asked, “What have I done, Lord?”
Adelaide was told bluntly, “you have gone back on your word.” Adelaide
exclaimed, “But I am not strong enough to endure cloistered life.” The Lord asked
her, “Who gives you strength?” Adelaide said to the Lord that she would go to the
priest and she was told that no priest could help her, and that she must do what she
was told to do. Adelaide said very well to the Lord, while telling herself quietly
she could back on her word later, but the Lord made her promise that she would
join the convent and she promised she would and immediately she felt peace and
happiness in place of the fright and indecision.

I selected Adelaide Langmann as my name for two reasons. The first was in
memory of my grandmother Adelaide, who loved and trusted God, and placed Him
at the center of her life. The second reason is because Adelaide reminded me of a
time in my life when I was not sure if I wanted to open the doors of my heart to
Christ because of my struggles and hardships, but most of all because I could not
be perfect in serving Him. I grow up in Holiness, with a lot of restrictions and
rules about what it meant to serve and honor God. I left the church a couple times
because I could not reconcile how I could serve God, knowing that I was going to
fall short. What brought me back to Christ was the sermon on “Behold, I stand at
the Door and Knock” (Revelation 3:20) and “As the Holy Ghost saith, ‘today if ye
will hear his voice harden not your hearts’” (Hebrews 3:7-8).

Thomas Aquinas: Saint Thomas Aquinas was a thirteenth-century Italian friar of
the Dominican order. Known as the Angelic Doctor, his extensive writings on
philosophy and theology have played a significant part in the development of
Catholic intellectual tradition. Recognizing that truth cannot contradict truth,
Thomas would often refer to and synthesize concepts and arguments from the
writings of Jewish, Muslim, and pagan scholars when they accorded with the
teachings of the Church. In so doing, he offers an illustration of the natural human
desire for God, even within those who do not recognize that it is God they desire.
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Beyond his intellectual reputation, however, Thomas is also known for his purity
and piety. While he was a seeker of truth, he was first a seeker of Christ the Truth,
and this priority shaped every aspect of Thomas’s life. Although I was initially
interested in his intellectual side, I have found in Thomas a more comprehensive
spiritual role model than I first realized. May his intercession guide all of us in the
pursuit of God as our ultimate end.

                                                                                                          By: Br. Dismas Bartolo Baume










The epithet “Doubting Thomas” has always seemed unfair to me. All the Apostles doubted the
Resurrection (Mt 28:17; Mk 16:14 Lk 24:36-43); so why is Thomas singled out? Thomas is not singled out because he uniquely doubted or because he doubted more than the others. Thomas is singled out because through him Our Lord chose to perfect the witness of the Apostles.

After the Resurrection, Our Lord can appear anywhere at any time. He chose to appear to the remaining Apostles when Thomas wasn’t with them. More importantly, He gave them exactly the proof Thomas would demand (Jn 20:20). The Apostles tell Thomas, “We have seen the Lord” (Jn 20:25). The “doubt” in Thomas is not rejection of Our Lord or of the Resurrection but in the testimony of his friends. They testified to a statement of fact that was incredible without a sense of their submission and confession.

Our Lord, however, gives Thomas the opportunity to teach the Apostles how to testify. When Our Lord
appears to the Apostles again, a week later, and presents His Wounds to Thomas for inspection, Thomas replies “My Lord and My God!” (Jn 20:28). Thomas confesses a personal, relational, and devotional testimony of the Resurrection and submits to Jesus as Divine Lord. Thomas does three things in his exclamation: he assents to the identity of Jesus as Lord and God; he submits to that truth personally; and he expresses it as an act of joyful worship. His friends give cognitive assent to the Resurrection. Thomas gives confessional assent to the Risen Lord.
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One might argue this is where we move from teaching about Our Lord to preaching about Him – when
we move from reporting fact to adoring confession. Perhaps this is what the Lord meant when He tells
Thomas “Blessed are those who have not seen and yet believe” (Jn 20:29).

When members of the Lay Dominicans are initially received into the Order, they
have the opportunity to choose a saint’s name (or two) as a patron to whom they
can pray and ask for help. Names can be male or female or in various languages,
and everyone seems to have a different reason for choosing a particular name. We
will share these reasons from our Joy of the Just members over the next few
months.

Petra Paula: Simon Peter the Apostle was hot tempered, often spoke before
thinking, and impulsive—jumping into the water to meet Jesus as He was walking
toward the boat during the storm, but then losing his faith when he realized the
strength of the wind and calling on Jesus to save him. When he says that Jesus is
the Christ, Jesus renames him the “Rock” upon which He would build His church.
Later, Peter denied Jesus those three times before the cock crowed and he wept
bitterly, because though full of faults, he truly loved the Lord.
I always thought Paul was an arrogant misogynist, but a little voice inside my head
kept saying “Petra Paula” while I was considering a name, and so many of our
friars liked him and had taken his name, that I did as well. Though the Pharisee
Saul had persecuted Christians, after a stunning vision, Paul, now chosen by the
Lord, preached the Gospel to the Gentiles. Most of us wouldn’t even be Catholic
let alone a Dominican, without him. In reading more of his writings from that
perspective, it is clear how much he was loved by the many communities he started
during his journeys around the Mediterranean. Both of these sinful men were
changed by the Lord in more than their names, and both were ultimately martyred
in Rome in the mid 60’s.

Pio Benedict: I chose Padre Pio (1887-1968) for prayers answered after a sign was
given to me confirming my prayers were heard during a difficult time of my life. 
He has helped me more since then and I have had the experience of smelling the
flowers.
St. Benedict of Nursia (480-547) is considered one of the patron saints of exorcists
(a topic that I have been interested in and studied for years). The initial drawings
for the St. Benedict medal came from an anonymous monk in 1415.  The CSPB
stands for Crux Sancti Patris Benedicti and the other two translate to "May the
Holy Cross be my Light; let not the dragon be my guide." The other side means
"Begone Satan, do not suggest to me your vanities.  What you offer me is evil;
drink your own poison."  I wear rings of both of these great saints at all times to
remind me of their gifts and holiness. 

Paul: I chose Paul as my religious name because I wanted to pay homage to St.
Paul of the Cross (1694-1775). He was the Saint I chose for my confirmation back
in 1989. I had been looking in a book trying to decide on a saint for confirmation
and the book said his feast day was on my birthday. Turns out the book was
wrong, but I’m still happy with my choice. These days, when people see Brother
Paul, they automatically think of St. Paul the author of a third of the New
Testament, and I have more and more leaned towards him as my religious
namesake, but I can keep them both.

Raymond de Pennafort (1175-1275): Raymond was the third Master of the Order.
He was much older when he joined than most though he lived the other half of his
life as a Dominican. He had been a noted professor of canon law and his joining
brought many other notables behind him. In his humility, he worked quietly along
with the other novices, some of whom had been his students. He put the
Dominican Constitutions into permanent form and was elected Master after the
death of Jordan of Saxony. Due to illness, he resigned from that position after only
two years but worked quietly in the Order for the next thirty years. I also chose
him because my father’s name was Raymond.

Mary Magdalene: Mary Magdalene was a woman transformed through her
interaction with Jesus: healed and loved.  She followed more closely than even
some of Jesus' most ardent apostles.  She was there at the Crucifixion. 
Her love was greater than her fear. Jesus showed Himself to her first after his
resurrection and sent her to tell the others so she is the Apostle to the Apostles.